Infant toys are everywhere with their high prices and bright colours slapping you in the face at every possible moment…..and yet…a toy Jacob received this weekend has capivated his attention and it cost a mere $3.00 - I’m not sure what its called but you basically attach all these ball sorta things together and make a chain - move over drop and roar dinosaur, laugh and learn home, and other expensive gifts Jacob has received - he just nominated this one the Best Toy In The Universe!!

The time finally came for Jacob to move to his big boy car seat! We set it up in the living room and let him have a sit in it and he looked so proud just sitting in it and smiling away. I feel a mixed array of emotions at this graduation (as I suspect I will feel at future graduations) but I remember this tiny being I brought him from the hospital - he was so small he needed inserts on each side of the car seat to help him sit in it properly - his tiny feet didn’t even come to where the buckle began…and now he’s in this seat, sitting fully upright, arms on the arm rests and smiling up at us - as if to say thanks Mom and Dad - the view from this seat is a WHOLE lot better. I miss the small dependent Jacob - who just spent hours in my arms cradled and calm - but I’m amazed and so much in love with the Jacob I have now - the crawling, squealing, laughing, smiling, trusting, and less dependent little boy who at this moment is softly dreaming in his room. Somedays I want newborn Jacob back but on days like yesterday - watching him sit upright in that seat - my love for him swelled like it had never before - I wanted to understand him - to know the thoughts he was thinking at that moment. I look into his eyes and I see wonder, amazement, fascination and I wish I could be in his eyes - experiencing it the way he does…but I will settle for watching him explore life.